Crushes

[mrplayfuluk]

Following on from the heather child article. Can you remember your first teenage same sex crush?

For me it was at 14, and he played rugby at my school.. I idolized him, I still remember feeling over awed, he was short but very fit... and yet he hardly looked at me and probably never guessed!

[deletetacount123]

I was 12... and it was my best friend from childhood :-) I am pretty sure she had one on me too just cause of some of the things she did lol But we were young, decided it was just silly crush cause of how very close we were :-)

Now I think about it.... We're still in contact via text messaging but... its funny how we never forgot each other, she moved when I was 13, shes gave me a quick fast peck on the lips, we lost contact...... then in 2001 when I was 22, I get a message from her on ICQ.... I was so surprised that day I nearly forgot I was holding a very hot cup of tea. (uh oh!!!)
But I never forgot about her and she clearly never forgot about me as well :-)

Shes a VERY busy person these days!! And I get to see her in December :-) *looks forward to the day*

Tasha

[Reprob8]

I was 12... and it was my best friend from childhood :-) I am pretty sure she had one on me too just cause of some of the things she did lol But we were young, decided it was just silly crush cause of how very close we were :-)

Now I think about it.... We're still in contact via text messaging but... its funny how we never forgot each other, she moved when I was 13, shes gave me a quick fast peck on the lips, we lost contact...... then in 2001 when I was 22, I get a message from her on ICQ.... I was so surprised that day I nearly forgot I was holding a very hot cup of tea. (uh oh!!!)
But I never forgot about her and she clearly never forgot about me as well :-)

Shes a VERY busy person these days!! And I get to see her in December :-) *looks forward to the day*

Tasha


Hey hun, Like to see that take charge attitude but keep your expectations reasonable, lots of fishies in the sea so to speak.

[deletetacount123]

I know :-)

[Azrael]

I was 15. He was my sister's friend who tutored me in geometry. He later became my first boyfriend :bigrin:

[ophelia_in_red]

I'm afraid mine is a sad story. It was 13th January 2000, a couple of weeks before my 14th birthday. She was a classmate: tall, beautiful, half-Japanese as I remember, and playing the drums in a black minidress. I never plucked up the courage to tell her how much I wanted her, and harboured a lingering passion for the next two-and-a-half years (during which I wrote her music coursework for her, unable to say no). I hear about her occasionally from schoolfriends still in touch with her; I even still dream about her now and again. But we were never close, and I shouldn't think I'll ever see her again.

So, yeah.. There it is :kay:

[mrplayfuluk]

Aah ophelia such a sad tale... I guess all crushes result in unrequited love but my don't they leave an impression forever!

[deletetacount123]

I don't think I'll ever act out on my crush.... IF it happens... fine, i'll leave that for time to do. Im just happen we're still in contact even tho we don't live near each other... 16 years is a long time :-) Im happy with just the friendship

Tasha

[membrain]

When I was 13 I started crushing on this girl who had been my friend for about a year. Anyway things didn't progress until I was 15. When I little 'incident' at a party revealed my crush. She liked me back but seeing as how her parents were fanatical right-wing Christian types (ugh) she backed out. Sad but true.

[EludedSunshine]

Mine was one of my best friends, when I was about 13/14. I never told her, and nothing ever came of it. I guess that's good, because she turned out to be a rather intolerable person... but boy if those weekly sleepovers at her house weren't tough on me at times. :tong:

[deletetacount123]

LOL my friend and I had weekly sleepovers too... sometimes the whole weekend! Every week... Im surprised we managed to get HOMEWORK done we had on weekends lol

Tasha

[EludedSunshine]

LOL my friend and I had weekly sleepovers too... sometimes the whole weekend! Every week... Im surprised we managed to get HOMEWORK done we had on weekends lol

Tasha
I'm surprised I managed to stay on the top bunk. :bigrin:

[Reprob8]

My first same sex crush did not occur untill adulthood, and it is someone who I could never approach. I tend to avoid him because of this.

[deletetacount123]

I'm surprised I managed to stay on the top bunk. :bigrin:

lol we slept in the same bed.... I was the silent sleeper (barely moved at all and still am like that) she was wild!! She moved around sooo much and often waking me up in the night lol Especially when a arm or a leg went on top of me. lol

Tasha

[citystyleguy]

i had loads of crushes, in middle and high school, all unrequited! then my first year in university, my swim team buddy; o' lord did i fall hard, but this time, he fell as hard as i did! don't remember much of those first two years, but i remember every part of him, mind, body and soul!!! playing with that body; long, long, lllooonnnggg... kisses, running my hand under his shirt, pressing against him, in public not caring who saw, laughing together over who knows what....

now it's long breaks between contacts, life taking its turns! oh, well, maybe something might happen again, sometime!

there would be others, the last one being my wife; still miss her so very much, and wonder if this ache will it every stop...the others never have!

that's one of lifes irony, the longing and pain after a beautiful relationship ends!

[EludedSunshine]

lol we slept in the same bed.... I was the silent sleeper (barely moved at all and still am like that) she was wild!! She moved around sooo much and often waking me up in the night lol Especially when a arm or a leg went on top of me. lol

Tasha
Same bed... that's lucky! But I imagine it could be tough, too. :tong: Ha, I used to be a pretty thrashy sleeper, too. Now I get so little decent sleep that if I manage to pass out, I'm like a brick and nothing short of a nuclear holocaust could wake me most of the time... lol. Except my alarm clock. That horrible piercy beep... If I hear it even on TV or something my hair stands on end.

[deletetacount123]

LOL ya, we liked sharing the bed lol plus her room was small so you really had no choice anyway... mine was bigger but she liked to sleep with me rather than the spare matress that was set up for her. She never did say why lol we'll be getting ready for bed and talking, she'll get in mine as if it was a perfectly normal thing to do. lol

things don't usually wake me... but if someone is in the bed with me and moves to much I will wake up... or if they touch me, seriously, when Im sleeping ANYTHING that touches me wakes me up even if it was an accident bump by the elbow when moving.
I hate TV or Movies sometimes... the DOORBELL!!! If Im not looking at the screen, and the doorbell rings, I'll think someone rang the bell but then see someone on TV answer the door LOL


Same bed... that's lucky! But I imagine it could be tough, too. :tong: Ha, I used to be a pretty thrashy sleeper, too. Now I get so little decent sleep that if I manage to pass out, I'm like a brick and nothing short of a nuclear holocaust could wake me most of the time... lol. Except my alarm clock. That horrible piercy beep... If I hear it even on TV or something my hair stands on end.

[DiamondDog]

I had a fair ammount, even as a kid towards male friends; but I didn't know that's what they were at the time.

[Diane54]

Tasha, you lucky girl got to be with her at times .
My crush was on a girl that I knew for only a short time. We met and got to know each other a little bit but after only 3 weeks she was transfered to another school. She had the most gorgeous red hair, perhaps that explains my red hair fetish. We never saw eachother after that. :( I never forgot her but I have always wondered about whether she remembered me.

[membrain]

Tasha and EludedSunshine! I know the pain of sleepovers! We always seemed to get put in the same bed together. ;) Okay, so maybe it was partly my fault.....
Anyway, we used to touch legs under the covers all the time. I know sometimes it was intentional on my part, others times possibly hers, we've never discussed it. :tong:

[skiflydive]

Mine was when I was a junior in high school, 1968. His name was Greg and he was popular in school sports etc. After a ski trip we were waiting outside the bus - I looked at him and just melted inside. Next was a guy named Mike in college. He was out to my fiance but not me or very many males at all. He stayed in my dorm room, told me I had an almost perfect ass. I got that whole melty feeling again. Since I was "engaged" and homophobia was rampant in the late '60s early '70s I was too stupid to take advantage, or be taken advantage of. There have been others but those were the first.

[gentlepen9]

My first girl-crush was when I was 15 and her name was Tonia. We were friends but not exclusively. We hung out in the same crowd of people so that's how we came to know each other. At that time in my life I really didn't understand what I was feeling so I kept it to myself. But I often had these intense desires to kiss her and I wished that I was in her boyfriend's shoes. The following summer I moved away but before doing so she gave me some pictures that I still have 'til this day.
Tonia was my first girl-crush and I had others afterwards but it's a woman named Adrienne who haunts my soul. I met her while in college.
The very first time I saw Adrienne I felt weak. It was as if everything inside of me had turned to pulp. Have you ever been so consumed by beauty that you have no alternative but to heed her call when she beckons your attention? I simply could not turn my eyes away from her and when she looked at me and smiled it felt as though a mess of butterflies were released within and all I could feel were their wings fluttering beneath my breast. If it wasn't for the wall that I was leaning against I would have fell to my knees for all the strength within me had been drained. She was just that beautiful.
Later we became friends but I never spoke of how her presence terrified me and excited me at the same time. I never mentioned how every time she hugged me I felt as though I could just melt into her. Or that whenever she touched me my soul would just be still. Or when she would look at me how I would feel so completely captivated. I had never met anyone who made me feel so confused yet alive. Still, at that time in my life I didn't understand what I was feeling and I just passed it all off on "just being friendly". But there were things that were said and things that were done that I hadn't encountered before or since in my friendships with women. It now makes me wonder am I just making it more than what it was or were there subtle hints being revealed when she placed her hand on my knee and told me she thought I was pretty? Or the time when she said " You know I love you"? Or that evening when she came to my room in that black dress and stood so close to me that I could feel her breath brush my lips when she said, once again "You know I love you"?
I like to think that my memory is just bad and that things didn't happen that way. But how can I deny the lingering feelings even if the memories fade?
It can't all be in my mind, can it?

[Buck Naked]

The only guy I've ever had a crush on I met when I was 18 and he was 19. We immediately became close friends. I don’t recall having sexual thoughts about him prior to when I was about 25 (but probably did!). Our friendship was such that sex could have either destroyed it or enhanced it so I was always too scared to approach him. There were times when I had to avoid him because of the emotions I was experiencing but we would always get back together for camaraderie. We did almost everything together, i.e. vacations, drinking, drugs and I was always looking for excuses to expose myself to him such as skinny dipping or showering after a day of work together in the hope that he would suggest we play together. Often we would watch porn together and I just can’t believe that he never saw my hard cock though my pants but he never mentioned it. One time I drank too much with him and had to spend the night. I slept in the nude and was pretty sure he saw my hard cock but again never said or did anything about it. Unfortunately this past September at age 51 he was diagnosed with lung cancer and he passed away in April. I will always appreciate the brotherly love we shared for one another but I guess there will always be a level of regret for not pursuing him sexually. One thing is certain, my heart is broken and I do miss him greatly.

[bigolly]

My first and probably forever crush is?was my best friend all through high school and after!
we lived together as roomys about three yrs ago
i confessed to him that he had been the topic of a few homoerotic dreams of mine and he freaked out!!
he became very cruel and unkind to me but we survived as roomies another year when he moved i find he had been with a man himself!!! prob several !! that kinda hurt but mmmm a hairy chest you could get lost in! :rolleyes:

[innaminka]

Naturally I had the usual schoolgirls crushes on anything that looked half decent as male, but an odd thing happened which Afterwards I consigned to the mental rubbish heap.
During my last year at school, I became very close to a girl called Denise. We were the school nerds in a school that didn't place a lot of emphasis on academic success - we basically studied together.
I used to pine, anticipate, yearn for the nights she would come around and study togther. She had this aura about her, even though by the day's standards, she was as "plain as an Arrowroot bisuit." - as was I: even more so!
I developed a real vicarious sexual crush on her; yes I twiddled to visons of her undressing - which of course was so wrong as I was a red-blooded gal who just wanted to shag boys. (I hadn't ....yet!!! :rolleyes: )
After the year was over, we parted, and although we saw each other in the neighborhood, we went to different Uni's and that was that.

But if only I'd known.......

[Herbwoman39]

I don't remember having a same-sex crush as a teen (remember, I squelched all that stuff and lived in denial) but I'm making up for it now.

Currently I've got it bad for Rosario Dawson and Tracie Thoms. Have you SEEN Rosario in Clerks II? Damn!!

[Itsjustme14]

I really don't remember the first but it seems that most of my adult life had been made up of secret crushes, people whom I knew instinctually I would never have a chance with. Seems like there is always one, even within the freedom of this forum I have severeak crushes. Some I am very open about to them, and they know who they are. And there is one in the bisex.com world, whom I'm pretty sure I've never even chatted with, but through his threads and his profile his intellegence have captured my heart where he will forever remain an unrequited love.

[strawberry8302]

My first same sex crush was not a person I've been with or could be with, but in fact a celebrity... Beyonce to be exact. Her electrifying voice, sweet personality and bangin body is what makes me love her so much. I've liked girls I've had sex with, but I never crushed on them.