When did you know you were different?

[GayGuy04]

What made you think you were different and into the same sex?

When i was in high school I saw lots of guys and i was like wow I liked looking those asses in those jeans or shorts lol or when i would be in the lockerroom for gym class i tried not to look but I wouldn't want me to noticed.

[playful808]

5 or 6? I was “sexually precocious”. I liked both genders, but had more access to other boys. For me, this was not a phase.

[julyguybill]

Really when I was in high school I heard friends talking about guys being bisexual i started wondering what this would be like it years later before I acted on it

[Tight1-4u]

After being used by an older cousin for most of a summer I pretty much just put it out of my mind.. till high school when my coach bent me over in the shower.. he used me weekly and sometimes daily.. But in my early 20’s I met a guy in a bar.. he was a tall football type.. very good looking and built.. we were quite drunk and he ask if I ever mess around.. I told him sure I do.. he said no with other guys?? I just looked at him and didn’t know how to answer.. he said I knew it.. I ask what he knew.. he said you never answered so I knew you have.. it hit me like a ton of bricks that I was different..

[dickmeplz]

At the age of 9 when my mothers bf came in room and played with me and I got hard , I knew right then that I loved dick especially in my ass

[zgay73]

Puberty onward. Knowing is only the beginning. Acknowledging and accepting....

[KDaddy23]

As strange as this might sound, I didn't know I was different until I realized that I liked it and because I did, it made me different. Until that moment, I don't remember ever being "attracted" to boys and I'd gotten an early start having sex with girls and, well, the only thing I knew about sex with boys was being told to never do it. Then I experienced it - and it was all that and a bag of chips and only then did I get the sense that I was different. And while I had that weird sense of being the only one who felt this way, bleh, it didn't dawn on me right away that I wasn't because me and my friends were having sex with each other like it was illegal and going out of style any second now. I realized, even back then, that it wasn't boys I "liked" so much as it was the sex we could have - I was a really smart kid. I could like a guy... but not like I liked girls... which is also why, years later, I got the shock of my life to fall in love with a guy. Who knew?

[GayGuy04]

At the age of 9 when my mothers bf came in room and played with me and I got hard , I knew right then that I loved dick especially in my ass

Wow i bet that was little odd but sounds like at that age you enjoyed it with him

[csreef]

I am going to say when I was 15. I had a crush on a male teacher, and I was very confused/conflicted about my sexuality. Also I lived in a small town, with no one to talk to about this.

[Jazminedress]

probably since I was 8 or 9, I was always attracted to both sexes

[Grant_Norman]

probably since I was 8 or 9, I was always attracted to both sexes

Likewise...about 7 ...sucked cock several times...at 13 went hetero (mostly) full out for pussy until 65 until went full bi, it's all for the cock now...but I also wouldn't turn down eating pussy

[Fred_Brice]

I am not sure, when I realized, that I was different, but it was early in my teens. I really never had any thoughts, that I was different, and I was on my own quest, to learn as much as I could, about sex, since that was all, most of my young male friends, and I where always talking about sex and women. What I did not know, was anything about the female gender, since I was growing up with all brothers. I was very curious about sex in general and I eager to learn as much as I could, there was, no Internet and learning about sex was a challenge! There was a few men’s magazine and National Geographic with picture and that was about it and most parents failed to discuss it openly.
Although I had an interested, in mainly the female gender, I was much too young to learn, about it. So, I then took on the task, to learn about my own body since that is what most of my friends, talked about. Many of the older boys, openly discussed about how they had learned, how to play with their penis’s. They talked about, stroking their penis’s and how they got hard and some had said the more they played with their self, the better it made them feel. Some said that if they continue to play with their self, some time they would be able to, ejaculate some unknown creamy sticky fluid. That had encouraged me, to play more often with my own penis. In the beginning, I was not able to have an real ejaculation, but it would seem, that it would make me feel much better, so my own penis, became my best friend and it was not long until had my first ejaculation and it would be on a much regular basis and that strange feeling was what I had learn later to be an organism and to this day, I do try to masturbate, whenever I want to feel that feeling of having an organism.
When I was beginning high school, I often heard, other kids, talking about other guys, that were called a Queer/Fag, but now it is called, being Gay or Bisexual, so I was very secretive, as to my desires and not wanting, to be caught or called out/outed as a Queer/Fag! So, when I was in the boy’s locker-room for gym class, I tried, not to look or get caught looking, at the other boy’s cocks, Since I did not want anyone to noticed me looking and getting the new name as a Fag! Often, I could not help myself, I did not believe, that I was attracted to other boys, but I sure was fascinated, at seeing their naked cocks. I then started wondering, what this would be like with me touching another cock. I was then introduced to homosexual or (male sex), not completely by choice, but I had let an older male, believe that he was seducing me and all I was trying to do, is learn more, about what sex was really all about and he had often paid me for our time together. I guess that would make me a male whore! I did know better, the only thing I knew about sex with other boys, was being told, to never do it, but my curiosity had allowed me to experience it. I did go back, off and on, for a few weeks and I would have to say, that did not know, that I was different, until I realized, that I really enjoyed playing with, another’s person cock and letting that person play with my cock, yet I also had that weird feeling, of being the only one, who could felt this way, by having homosexual sex! I was very confused/conflicted about my sexuality.
Soon I changed my life focus, to only having only “normal sex” (male/female sex) and I did not have, the desire for any type, of homosexual sex for many years, and not until my wife death, due to Cancer.
I had realized that, I still need, some better form of my sexual relief, since playing with myself, and my own toys, can only go so far. I truly was truly alone and I missing out on the human touch by others. I reflect back to my own homosexual activities, as a young teen and even though, I had not thought about it at all, for all my, many years marriage. It is now, all about cocks now! I started finding myself, focusing more about busting a nut or two and at the same time, I found myself, desiring to play with other male cock and hopefully we would share some mutual oral pleasures together and hopefully, I would then have the opportunity to improve my one abilities, about the “art of sucking” someone cock and hopefully, have them suck my cock. I am now truly, one of many, current “Full-time Male Cocksucker”!

[Arsamatoria]

I was about 14. It was after the first time I had sucked my cousins cock, and loved it. After that first time whenever we were alone, I had his cock in my mouth.

[eager4cum]

I suppose I knew it all my life. I just did not know just how different until I got hard sucking my best friend off.

[JeffT]

I figured that out in high school gym class. A guy changing next to me said I had a nice body. He looked pretty good too...… a shapely ass in tight briefs, with a very appealing bulge. Clearly a missed opportunity.

[Mmpmm]

I didn't really recognize it because I was only attracted to girls. I actually still generally only notice women when out in public. But starting when I was a teenager I would always masturbate to the gay adds I'm the back of porn magazines. In the newspaper I would look at the m4m ads in the personal ads. I got caught once trying to peek at a guys junk in the locker room but I was never attracted to guys. I also grew up in a family that was and still is extremely homophobic so there was no way I was going down that path.

[bithunder]

The guy next door was gay. At 13 I offered to let him blow me if he would let me drive his car. He declined. Married at 22. It probably hit me in my mid 20's when stuck on commercial boat for 10 hours with nothing to do. The cabin boy, maybe 16, sat opposite and assumed provocative poses. Again, nothing happened even though I toyed with inviting him to my hotel after the journey. I developed an interest in transvestites, magazines, stories etc. In my early 30's on a business trip to a major city I wandered in to a cross dresser's tavern, met, conversed with and invited a not-so-cute CD to have sex at "her" place. I sucked "her" cock without drawing cum. At 42 I started visiting ABS and have never turned back.

[NjbiGuy01]

I started early with a "kissing cousin" (female). She played with my erect cock, I sucked her nipples and I fingered her, a bit of dry humping (externally) but no penetration or outright sex. Then when in my early teens I hung with a bunch of macho jocks who shared homework after school to save time so we could watch porn and jerk off together. One day I ended up alone with one friend and we convinced one another to suck one another off, since nobody else was around. It ended up being a summer of oral, and fucking one another regularly. Kissing one another was "gross" (although later I got into it with men).

It took me some time for me to rationalize I could actually be gay AND straight (I had no idea that bisexuality existed till a few years later), as I still was seeing girls and getting some action there. I eventually saw a porno in a Time Square booth where a guy was fucking a girl and another guy offered his cock to the two of them and they sucked it as they fucked....suddenly it made sense that you could like women AND men !!

Been happily Bi ever since...about 50 years and counting.

[chargersfan]

I was in Jr High and I was told by this nasty bitch twin girl in 8th grade that she wished she had my bubble butt ... I had a girl butt and was called bubble butt all the time by her and her sister and their friends. Some time later I was digging through some old clothes and found a skirt and well one thing leg to another and when I wore it my butt was like a plump girls butt and hips were somewhat wide couple of rolled up socks for breasts and body worked ... not the face ..... i say that’s was a turning point, I’d later on in life get fucked good with that same burgundy skirt ... got caught wearing a tan one by my parents but that’s a different story...

[marine20]

I was in Jr High and I was told by this nasty bitch twin girl in 8th grade that she wished she had my bubble butt ... I had a girl butt and was called bubble butt all the time by her and her sister and their friends. Some time later I was digging through some old clothes and found a skirt and well one thing leg to another and when I wore it my butt was like a plump girls butt and hips were somewhat wide couple of rolled up socks for breasts and body worked ... not the face ..... i say that’s was a turning point, I’d later on in life get fucked good with that same burgundy skirt ... got caught wearing a tan one by my parents but that’s a different story...
wow , tell us what happened next .

[JasonS]

5 or 6? I was “sexually precocious”. I liked both genders, but had more access to other boys. For me, this was not a phase.

I was the same age. Had lots of fun with both sexes

[Biappeal]

When I was 12yo I first realized I liked guys. I did not want to be "gay" but I also could not stop getting naked with friends!

[JustinLee]

19. Girlfriend cheated on me and was turned on by it. I loved the thought of a another guys big cock ramming her pussy. I wanted in on it. I’ve always loved the look of a guys ass.

[Waylon]

When I was in my early fifties and wifey was no longer into sex at all, I got into oral sex porn, women blowing guys mostly. But then one movie featured bi mmf and that really turned me on. Then one day when wifey was out of town, I met a guy at a nearby lake, invited him back to my place, put on som blowjob porn and let him blow me. But then I had hm stand up and whipped out his cock and sucked him off. There was a mirror on the wall and I could see his dick sliding back and forth in my mouth and that’s when I knew I was different. (and became a very good cocksucker too!)

[chargersfan]

wow , tell us what happened next .
If you asking about the tan skirt my stepdad whipped the shit out of me with help from my mom after they caught me ... that was the fix back in my day... is that what you were asking about ?

[RisingBi]

I don't think I ever feel different. I mean, starting at the age of 32, when my gay fantasies first arose, I was going to all sorts of gay sex venues, like video arcades, porn theaters, bathhouses, gay sex clubs, back rooms of gay bars, jerk-off clubs, all-men naked dancing, clothing optional nights in gay bars, and gay orgies, always surrounded by tons of other guys just like me.

Then, at 51, after losing my gay virginity, as a top, finally making love to another man's ass, I gave up all the anonymous oral sex and started joining online gay and bisexual dating sites, again filled with tons of guys just like me, and then hooking up with guys in each other's homes. In addition, now that LGBTQ stuff is so wide open in our society, I'm even more aware of how I'm really not different. In fact, I think there are even more guys just like me, bisexual, way more guys, than society thinks. And then I'm surrounded now by such wonderful men just like me in this forum. :bipride:

[EveningWood]

I was the straightest guy you've ever seen: masculine, a lady's man, huge libido (but only for women) when my wife of 15 years decided she didn't want to be married anymore. I was stunned beyond words. We'd had a really good sex life and I thought our relationship was pretty good overall.
So when we split - this was in the late 1990's - I bought my first computer and logged onto that new thing called the "internet". And, being newly divorced and very horny, gravitated towards porno of course. I stumbled onto some gay porn occasionally and viewed it with detached interest at first ... until I realized I was getting hard watching it. I remember one particular short video of a guy jacking off and cumming. I literally couldn't take my eyes off it and, alone in my apartment, stripped naked and began jacking along with him. I had crossed into new territory.
I got involved with a girl shortly thereafter but kept returning more and more to watching gay or bi porn. I found I loved watching naked guys almost as much as naked women. A couple of years later, I discovered this site and a couple of others where chat was allowed and wandered in, nervous but excited. it was a whole new world, sharing fantasies with women and men, some of which led to masturbating via keyboard. Then one day a guy asked if he could call me. My g/f was gone for a few hours, working on a Saturday, and I gulped and gave him our number (pre-cell phones). We talked for an hour, me naked on my bed, stroking with him, sharing a level of intimacy that turned me on more than I had been in years. From that point on, I tried to do phone when I could. The sound of a guy's (or sometimes girl's) voice as he or she approaches orgasm is a huge turnon for me.
I got remarried a few years ago. No, my wife doesn't know and would NOT understand. I still have those urges. Once they enter your head and get your balls buzzing, it's hard to make them go away ...

[biwmtrucker44]

In the late 70s I would catch my self staring a guy's ass as much and a woman. Men wore tight jeans then. I was drawn to women more so I put men in the back of my mind. in the 90s I started thinking about 3 some with the now Ex-wife. By the early 2000s I started exploring the internet and found a few bi and gay porn sites. By 2002 I sucked my first dick but it wasn't till 2004 at age 44 I accepted the fact I was Bisexual. Hence the 44 at the end of my screen name

[borntosuckcock]

When I was 6 or7, I was jacking off every chance I got. I’d seen naked men in the showers at the public swimming pool and at the showers in the trailer park that we lived in. I would fantasize about what it would be like to touch them and suck them, I wondered how much bigger they would get when they were hard. Sometimes I would get hard just looking the cocks and would try to hide it. Then one day, a guy caught me looking at his cock. No one else was around and he walked over and stood in front of me as I was sitting on a bench. He asked if I like it and pulled my towel that was covering my hard little cock. Then he said it looks like you like it. Told me to meet him outside and I did. I was about 7 to 8 then, I didn’t know what wanted for sure, but I knew I want to play with his ccs and to suck it. I followed him to his trailer, we went inside as soon as we were inside he took his clothes off and I copied him. He had me sit down and then brushed his cock back and forth against my face and mouth. I still remember how hard and big his cock got. He told me to suck it and I was eager to do it. Then he said he was going to cum and to just swallow it, I did and I liked the taste. I would stop by his trailer once a week for years to suck him off. His cock was so big compared to my young mouth. I consider myself a bisexual, I love eating a nice wet pussy as much as I like sucking.

[NJwood]

I never realized being different. That’s a relative term. I had no interest in guys while in my teens, just women. As I entered my 20s it then became I was interested in sex and the pleasure derived. My gf at the time swapped my cum with me during a post bj kiss, I then explored beyond her pussy and probed her ass with my tongue. She was turned on by it and so I continued. Her pleasure was mine. Is that the difference? Once o became single again in my mid 20s and lacking sexual pleasure. I sought to the usual outlets available to a guy, strip clubs, cheap easy titillation and porn. That may be where my exploration began. Watching a woman suck a cock was a turn on. What was fascinating was the amount of pleasure she seemed to get from giving a blow job. Then the opportunity presented itself during a night at a strip club. The combination of unfulfilled desire and the curiosity of what was so pleasurable in delivering a blow job led me to a hotel room and onto my knees sucking and pleasuring a cock and myself.

Im still left with what difference are we talking about?

[KDaddy23]

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Im still left with what difference are we talking about?" I think - and the OP can verify - this is about the moment you realized that you weren't exactly heterosexual and depending on how old you were when that dawned on you. I know when I realized it - after I got introduced to it - and even then I knew that sex was only between boys and girls but now it can happen between boys... and that makes you different from "everyone" else and, sometimes, to the point where you feel like you're the only one who is like this. Some folks just know that they're different - and even before they have any sex; they feel the attraction both ways when, again, they are aware that sex - and attraction - is only supposed to be between males and females.

It's not so much what one did or does that made them different - it's when they became aware of the fact that whatever they were doing, thinking, etc., made them different from anyone else they knew. For me, it wasn't until literally a few minutes after I got introduced to dick, realizing that I loved it and all that, that I was different from, say, my peers... well, until I found out they were just as "different" as I was. If one never has that "I'm different!" moment, I'd say it's probably due to the fact that they have a different school of thought about sex on the whole and, as such, no matter how they got introduced or when they did, they don't feel or think of themselves as being different from "everyone else."

So the question asks, in a way, about the moment you were like, "Hey! I tried it and I liked it!" and you knew that this was something boys weren't supposed to do with other boys - ever. Not what - when.

[zgay73]

And some still don't think they're different even though partake in the pleasures of the same gender...

[delpark]

I take "When did you know you were different" to mean a realization that I did not quite meet society's expectation of heterosexuality. For me, it was after I declined a proposition to "get my rocks off" one night by a guy. Even though I didn't take the offer, something in me was awakened to the concept. A desire to have sex with males has grown from that. I was aware my friends and family were not receptive to the idea, but I looked at the world differently.

[Christopher South]

Probably around 12 I realized I was "different". My friend got his hands on some porn magazines and a bunch of us were looking at them. They were all commenting about the boobs and pussies but I was attracted to the cocks.

Around 15 I started developing crushes on guys (and girls). Again, I knew it was "different", even "wrong" by standards those days so repressed pretty hard.

[LVTOGP]

At the time I didn’t know how “different” it was. It started as seeing women shoving a finger in with guys, then exploring with friends, then learned I liked to stretch myself then grew an attraction to strong dominant men. And then here I am a kinky bi bottom, maintain a strait relationship but bring guys home. I don’t like to think I’m different”, but like to say I follow what feels good

[KDaddy23]

And some still don't think they're different even though partake in the pleasures of the same gender...

Sure - a lot of guys tell themselves that they’re not different when they know they are; it makes them sleep easier at night and after they’ve had some dick... and that’s a fairly normal self-defense mechanism that helps protect one’s sense of self.

[billi1944]

I was 12, my best friend and I played reverse strip poker where the winner took of a piece of clothing. We always started our games with loser sucks cock but we were both chicken. The most we did was jack the other guy off. The one night I went to the candy store that brought up behind the store. As I approached there was a guy leaning up against the build, a girl was on her knees giving him a blow job. I dropped behind a car and in a few moment he dropped his load of cum into her willing mouth. She leaned him up and they both went to the front of the candy store. I followed, I was 12 yrs old they were 14 and older...I was shrimp. I went into the store got my dads evening newspaper and I had a cream soda. AS I left the store the girl was leading another guy to the back of the store. Well she didn't turn green o dropped dead. I decided then to suck Brian's cock the next time we played reverse poker. The very next day we were in my house after school My parents worked and got home after 5:30 it was 3:30. We played I lost and got on my knees and said I'll suck your cock. Brian as usual cover his hard on. I said I'm willing to suck your cock! He said you'll bight it off. I challenged his Irish Manhood by saying your man enough to put your cock in my open mouth much less tell me to suck it! I'm man enough to put it into your open mouth. I opened my mouth Brian cam over and held my head firmly in his hands as he cautiously put his cock into my open mouth. At that moment I knew my hot breath would be too much and when he was almost fully in my open mouth he said suck it, which I did. Once I put my lips around his cock I knew I was a "cocksucker"! About 5 minuets passed he told me he was about to cum and to take my mouth off his cock...I mumbled NO use my mouth - another few moments he shot his white hot cum into my mouth! That confirmed my being a "cocksucker"!!! A few days later it was turn and I could see that he wasn't cool about sucking my cock. I said to Brian that is OK. He agreed that he loved feeding me his cock. We agree that what he does with my mouth was his and my business and no one else's. I agreed to suck his cock anytime and as often as he wanted and the word NO was not in my vocabulary. Brian used me at minimum three to four times a week - I loved it every time. By Thanksgiving I was sucking five guys a week and one of them was my older brother, but that is another story. I sucked cock from 12 to 16 that's when girls were dating I love tit!

[letmebest]

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[querty]

@billi1944..... would love to hear the older brother story

[2holer]

I would say I've known since I was 5 or 6 that I like to be played with in my ass but cocks were new to me I didnt see another till me and my cousin were playing with our selfs and got caught bi grandma but I all way looked at cock while in the locker room or skinny dipping with the boy scout's and when ever use boy would find a dark place and jack off together but I was crazy about pussy not so much about fucking them but eating them the person that played in my ass was a girl and I think she did it cuz her dad fucked her ass she was 5 years older that me and a tomboy I think she tried to heart me some time she would also have me eat her pussy but if my dick got hard she would heart it till it went down but I learned to love it and it went on till she was out of high school and i got into girls not knowing I was a bottom in the makings I got married had three kids and I always knew that I was looking at a mans ass and cock while watching porn with my wife or bi myself and after my wife sex drive left her I was craving porn gay porn I allway was a oral man so all I wanted to do was suck cock and have my ass fuck or played with so with me I was in the 5th grade when I started to look at cocks and 50 when I sucked my first one lol and I like it more that eating pussy

[James000]

Well said it was at puberty for me too

[CrazyloboTX54]

I was raised in a very homophobic and raciest household. While a sophomore in college I kept "running" into LBGT people who really liked me. It was not until after I got divorced and was on my own for a number of years that I realized how attracted I was to men and to cocks. I began to experiment and found that I love men and their cocks. I love giving, receiving and cum-my cum, the other man's cum. Cock just fascinates me and I wish I could get more of it.

[jomartin119]

when i was 12. i was at my friends house i when into his house to use the restroom. his older brother came out of the shower while i walk to the bathroom. at the time being 12 1st seeing a cock it was uncut and long and thick it look like a elephant thunk to me lol

[MAcpl69]

When I was in 7th grade that summer a friend and I spent many a night in his fort, jerking and sucking each other. Took a long time before I was comfortable with the idea but I am now excited to explore my bisexual side

[bicuriouslondonguy]

I've always really known. didn't really ever think about it in terms of gay/straight, but I did normal exploration with kids my own age, with boys and girls (come to think of it I never instigated with either sex as a kid. weird.) and knew I enjoyed both. it was sealed when I was fully aware I was aroused by the men and the women both in porn when I discovered that as well. Though I'm still inexperienced with guys as an adult. I had a few opportunities when I was younger but wasn't ready. kind of regret that now *sigh*

[Blueskymind]

How and when did you know you were different.
I think I had some idea in elementary school…might sound weird but I remember liking this other boy’s hands. Think that made me notice him a lot and I probably stared at him a lot. He was talkative and outgoing, and I was more the quiet shy type.
I came from a religious upbringing, so I think I felt like I had to repress a lot of my feelings. I always tended to have a lot of girls that were friends. I remember in my mid to late teens one day a few of them started giggling and looking at me so I was like…what? And the one who was my best friends came over and she was like, we were just saying how we thought you would make an adorable boyfriend to another guy. I did not say anything but just sort of stood there blushing. Then another girl came over and was like I bet you would even look cute in panties. They all laughed so I walked away but I remember that night thinking about it and fantasizing about it.
I would often fantasize about guys but then justify it in my head that it was only because I did not have a girlfriend.
Then I remember one of my first job in my early twenties. I used to deliver parts to all these different workstations and one day a girl I knew came up to me and said, do you know so and so? I said I know who he is but I don’t know him know him. She said, You know he’s gay right? I said no I didn’t. He was tall and with a beard and probably in his mid 40’s and I was in my early 20’s. So, she said yeah he’s the husband in the relationship, but he’s single now. So, I was like okay why is she telling me all this? Then she said, He and I are friends we always talk. I like teasing him. So yesterday I was like Are you really attracted to guys butts? And he was like Oh yeah! So, I said give me your top ten that work here. Then she said well he couldn’t come up with ten, but he gave me 5. Guess what, you were number 1! I just kind of laughed it off. Then she asked if I was gay as she thought we would make a cute couple. My face turned red but I blurted out no and looked away. She was like aw too bad, maybe he’s a little old for you anyway and walked off. But then the rumor got around that I made this guys cutest butt at the company so everyone would joke about it!
Sorry for the long post! 😊