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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]One guy asked me, "Should I warn you before I cum?" and I said, "Not if you don't want to; I want you to cum in my mouth and chances are I'm going to find out the same time you do that you gotta cum." I've actually had guys apologize for cumming in my mouth, something I can't help but to find funny; I mean, really why do you think I was sucking your dick besides proving to you that it isn't as bad as you think it is?

Some guys, after getting sucked off, can't decide right away whether it was [I]that bad[/I] or that good; they actually find themselves having to think about it and I know that their mind is telling them one thing and their body is saying something very different... and now it's a matter of what part of them they're going to believe. And the part I had to learn to deal with but, to this very day, I don't like doing is watching them get overcome by guilt and understanding that they're feeling guilty and it's not just because they just did something they weren't supposed to do. I could explain that to them but it's easy for me to ask them, "Does it make any sense to feel guilty about something you wanted to do?" And while some guys admit that it doesn't make sense and get over that sense of feeling horribly guilty, yeah, sometimes I have to explain the refractory period of sex in men to them and knowing that it'll probably go right over their head.

It just does me so much good to be able to allow a guy to find out that having another guy sucking his dick - and doing some sucking - really isn't as bad as it's thought to be and the certain fact that if you believe that it's going to be the most fucked up thing you've ever done, it's probably going to turn out that way because you've convinced yourself that it will be.

And you don't really have to believe me and I don't expect guys to believe it... but there is one sure way to find out if doing some cock sucking is, in fact, going to be so bad and horrible: Do it. "Man up" and get a guy to suck your dick and get the cum out of your balls. Wanna know if it's bad to suck a dick and taste sperm? Don't take anyone else's word about that - go suck a dick and decide for yourself. You're either going to find that it's the best thing you've ever done... or it just won't be and if it isn't, the chances are very good that it's not because of what the other guy did. Have it in your mind that you'd not be good at sucking dick? Eh, don't worry about it because even the best of us can only do what we can do... and you're never going to know if you can be good at it or not if you never do it and, to that end, it's important to not let yourself get all fucked up in the head if the other guy doesn't like what you're trying to do - you just can't please everyone every time.

It really isn't as bad as it's said and thought to be.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Lots of questions interspersed with what I'll call dogmatic opinions based upon what I know is basically a lie and things get to a point where the only way to... settle things and put them into perspective once and for all is to stop talking about it... and do it; there's only so much I can put into words so now it becomes a kind of "shit or get off the pot" moment and one of two things is going to happen: He's either going to want to get sucked off... or he's not.

I can be... calm about it because it doesn't matter to me one way or the other and more so since from the moment the conversation started, I've already made up my mind what I'm going to do... or not and all depending on how the conversation goes. I'm not going to pass up an opportunity to give a guy a blow job but if I have a reason not to, nothing he's going to say is going to change my mind about that but, sure, you get a chance to get me to change my mind... and it's not as if I've never changed my mind one way or the other. But this is not about me; I know what it's like to suck dick and have guys sucking me and there's really not too much I don't know about it but, again, this ain't about me...

This is ultimately about him finding out for himself whether getting a blow job from a guy is or isn't as bad as he thought and believes it to be. I'm not one to brag because it makes little sense to me but in every instance I've ever given a guy his first male blow job, not many of them have said that, yep - it was as bad as they thought it would be and that's never bothered me because I know in those very rare cases, I'm not the reason why they found it not to their liking: It's because their very firm beliefs about this didn't allow them to find out that, duh, getting sucked off just feels really good. I know that what makes it bad for them is they're thinking about a guy doing it and not even thinking about the obvious thing: They got their dick sucked and they came. I know that some guys believe to be bad because, through no fault of my own, they couldn't cum... and I know why they couldn't and I'll even explain it to them.

I've given, oh, lord, maybe a hundred or more guys their first male blow job... and only five of them found it not to their liking for some reason or another... and of the five of them? Three of them wanted to do it again to see if it could be to their liking. The other two? It fucked with them big time to admit that, yeah, okay, it wasn't [B]that[/B] bad but it was something that they just couldn't get into. It's that rare and curious thing where I can suck a guy's dick, get him to explode into my mouth... and he didn't enjoy it... but, again, I know why he didn't.

And, all after the fact, when the guy is sitting there and telling me that it wasn't as bad as he thought it would be, I learned not to look at him and say, "I told you so!" Well, okay - sometimes I do. It has always amazed me how a guy can go from, "I'd never do some shit like that!" to doing it and now they can't wait to do it again, either as a second time or I'll see them again and soon. And those guys who say that, okay, you can suck me off but I ain't sucking your dick? Some don't - they just can't and I understand that... but I get that "told you so" thought in my head when they just give into the moment and take my dick into their mouth. I get sober and solemn and very honest with them when they've told me or asked me if they can suck my dick but not to cum in their mouth and I give them my most solemn promise that I will warn them in enough time to move away before I cum and I have never failed to give that warning.

Some get the warning and move away... and many have not. I've given the warning and have wondered what it is that makes them hear it and keep right on sucking me and even when I'm right at the point of no return and sometimes "yelling" that I'm gonna cum - and they don't move away or stop. They're now either going to "acquire" the taste or they aren't and quite a few guys, after getting their first taste of sperm, have said that that, too, isn't a bad as they thought it would be or it's just something to get used to.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]Sometimes it's just information only and I've shocked a lot of guys, not because I know so much about this but why I do - and it's not just because I happen to be a really smart and knowledgeable kind of guy. I've had to learn not to roll my eyes when an information-only conversation now turns to them wanting to find out why I've been having sex with men right along with women. Again, some are able - even grudgingly - to accept what I say about myself as the truth... and sometimes, some guys require proof and not really because they need any such proof but the conversation has gotten them interested or curious or, usually, rather horny... and I just told them that I'm a cock sucker.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Not hard to figure out what happens next and I have always gotten a kick out of watching them think about whether they want to find out what it's really like or it's going to remain something they will have no part of... and it's not hard to figure out which thing will win that self-induced argument. Then assurances are needed and mainly that no one ever finds out that they were even thinking about doing this. The next and kind of common assurance is if I suck their dick, does it mean they have to suck mine? Well, no... unless you want to and I'll even tell them to not be surprised if they find out, while I'm sucking them, that they want to suck me. In this, what I know - and what they don't - is that there haven't been too many times where I've been in this situation, a guy has agreed to let me suck him off and has said that the favor will not be returned... and it happens.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Then they have another, "It wasn't as bad as I thought it was!" moment and that includes impressions on what it's like to have sperm in your mouth. Such conversations are kinda one-sided because I obviously already know that guys sucking dick isn't as bad as anyone thinks it is or as it's been reported to be; now it becomes a matter of whether or not they're gonna want to find out for themselves and, yes, sometimes they don't...[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]And most of the time, they do and for no other reason than getting their dick sucked right about now would be rather nice. I sit and notice guys trying to be cool and unaffected by the topic of discussion and while their demeanor and words strive to be neutral, their body tends to rat them out and there have been too many times when I've sat and listened to a guy tell me how fucked up it is for guys to suck dick... but their own dick is noticeably hard. Or I've noticed a change in their breathing or I'm able to see their pupils dilated or they've gone from sitting stock-still to fidgeting in place. Their minds might be out to lunch about it... but their bodies are saying something very different and it's often funny to me to see that they're aware of how their body is reacting and they're wondering if I've noticed it or not... and I'm not beyond just sitting there and acting like I'm not aware of it.[/FONT][/SIZE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]One of the things that has always delighted, amazed, and tends to make me laugh is when a guy who has been totally against men having sex with other men finding out that, holy shit - it really isn't as bad as they thought or was told it would be. It would - and still does - make me get "that look" on my face to hear a guy ranting and raving against this but then, for some reason, wanting to find out what the big deal is about it despite their stance that they'd never do some shit like that.

I've seen their both their fear and excitement; I've sat and listened to the tired and old arguments about why men should never have sex with each other and how it ain't right... but here they are, talking to me about something that they keep insisting they don't believe in while expressing a curiosity about what it's like. For some, explaining it to them just works but for many, well, it's just easier to show you what the big deal is about getting sucked off by a guy. I've seen the conflict taking place in their mind where, on the one side of things, yup - getting sucked off is pretty damned nice but, on the other side, guys aren't supposed to do that even though there aren't that many people who don't know how gay men have sex.

I can sit with a guy and tell him in some pretty good detail what it's like to have a guy suck his dick and be pretty blunt and frank when explaining that the only real difference between a woman doing it and a guy doing it is... who's doing it. Techniques vary from person to person but the end result is the same: Your dick gets sucked and you cum and what they do with it is up to them.

I've sat and watched our built-in fear of the unknown just fuck with a guy and, sometimes, it's hard for me not to start laughing to see him battling with himself because what he believes doesn't match the reality of things and even more so when prior to having this conversation with me, he would have sworn on any holy item you put in his hand that there is no reason in the whole wide world to let a guy give him a blow job...

Yet, here they are, talking to me about that which they said they had no interest in.

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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]"You make it sound easy," he said.

"That's because it is easy...and it's easy because, again, I have [I]decades[/I] of experience with this and I am nothing if not observant; I've seen the serious mistakes others have made and I learned from them. I made it my business to learn about the things that can go wrong and learned how to avoid them and, yeah, the best way to avoid something nasty is to do nothing," I said.

"There's a reason why I only have three rules about this," I wrote. "I learned that if you just wanna do it, the trick is to make it easier to do it instead of making it harder to do and if a guy can't or doesn't meet any of those rules, nothing is going to happen and no matter how much I wanna just do it and, yeah, all I have to do is suspect that he's not going to meet any of the rules: When in doubt, do nothing. Simple. Easy."

"You are one seriously nasty critter!" he wrote.

"Yes, I am and I've always been one," I wrote back. "I don't have 'that thing' for guys but I do very much love having sex and will with anyone who wants to [B]if [/B]the conditions are met," I said. "If I can just do it, why not?"

"What about preferences?" he asked - and not for the first time, either.

"I prefer to have sex," I said - and also not for the first time. "That's where rule number three - don't be my idea of an asshole - comes into play. Otherwise, what else is there to prefer? I've had sex with both men and women from as many races, creeds, all that stuff. Big dicks, little ones, cut and uncut ones; with gay men, really effeminate gay men, and the everyday regular kind of guys. You know that really hairy guys just freak me out... doesn't mean I can't or won't suck his dick. I've had sex with guys so skinny that I feel compelled to feed them and guys so big and fat that I've had to look for their dick."

"And the only thing that really matters is whether they want to have sex or not and while I do have some things that I will never do with anyone, absent those things, why not do it?" I asked. "Even in these things, everything is negotiable..."

"You make a good point," he said.

"I've never found reason to always think of why I shouldn't just do it but, yeah, I do think about such things because I'd be out of my mind not to," I said. "Those things just never took a long time for me to consider and, yep, sometimes I guess wrong but not all that often - I'm horny and easy... not perfect. And I've long since accepted that dealing with the consequences of my actions is something that cannot ever be avoided or, as we used to say, "You pays your money, you take your chances.""

"No risk, no reward in that sense," I continued to say. "If the risks can be eliminated or mitigated, why not just do it? I'd be lying to myself to say that I don't have to or it's not something I'd do all of the time or stuff like that because from day one, I've always wanted to and if I could literally do it all of the time, I most certainly would because I love having sex and I'm not just not all that particular about who I'm having it with as long as they can pass those three rules I mentioned."

"Otherwise, it's easy to just do it..."[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]​"Is it still that easy to get you in bed?" my protégé asked.

"Yeah, I'm still pretty easy but it stands to reason that along the way, I learned to say no to a lot of offers because I now have a lot of things I can still think about very quickly and take into consideration, that and the fact that the moment I get the sense a guy is trying to get into my underwear, I'm already thinking everything through and by the time he gets around to asking, I've already made my decision - and the decision is whatever it's gonna be and based on all of the stuff I've been thinking about," I explained. "Sometimes, my friend, the best decision to make is no decision at all and, believe me, it was a lesson I learned the hard way."

"The only real difference between the guy I am now and the guy I was way back then is that, well, I'm a hell of a lot more experienced that my younger self was," I said. "If I can do it, I'm going to do it... unless I have reason not to and, today, a guy is likely to give me a reason not to more than he is to give me a reason to just go for it because I'm still the very horny guy I was when I was younger... but I'm not stupid or careless."

I've always known that the one thing that helped and contributed to me just doing it was not having any inhibitions to speak of. Along the way - and like any guy would - I learned the things I liked doing and the things I just couldn't stand and it makes sense to stay away from the things I didn't like as much as possible but, yeah, not much in the way of inhibitions and understanding that I had them either removed early on or, more likely, they never had a chance to get set in my mind.

My protégé was telling me yesterday about the group of guys he spent the afternoon with that involved dicks being sucked with great fervor and desire and he had asked me if I would have been hesitant or apprehensive being in that situation... and I laughed (even though he couldn't hear me) and said that because I have little in the way of modesty or inhibitions, if I wasn't the first one getting naked and jumping on the closest dick to me, well, I wouldn't be the last one getting into the mix. It doesn't, however, mean that I wouldn't have already thought about everything there would be to think about and consider but chances are seriously good that before I would have arrived at the gathering, I would have already made up my mind whether to participate or not and, as I explained to him, if I had any doubts - even the smallest one - I wouldn't attend but if not, all that would remain would be to just do it because absent a reason not to, um, just doing it is still a whole lot of fun.

"You don't worry a whole lot about this, do you?" he had asked during our original conversation.

"I do and I'd be a fool not to be worried about the things that are worrisome," I had said. "But experience and my ability to think and make decisions quickly despite the amount of stuff that has to be thought about has served me well over all this time. Yeah... I've had a lot of dick in my mouth, my ass, and both; I've had my dick in a lot of guys both mouth and ass... and the only thing that has happened is I had sex with a guy."

I reminded him that in over five decades of having sex with people, I have never caught anything nasty because just doing it has to follow a hard set rule I've never had reason to break: Think first, then act if you must or if you can and with the sure and certain understanding that sometimes, the best thing to do in that situation is often to do nothing. Otherwise, just do it because it also doesn't make sense for me to lie to myself and act as if I don't want to do something when I sure as hell want and need to.

And I reminded him that I was well into this when HIV/AIDS came along and was killing people and the other STDs had a lot of people lining up at clinics to be treated.
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[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]"Back then, it was never a question of not doing it; it was something that you just did," I explained to my protégé and with reference to making the decision to do it or not. "There were a lot of guys who would still be afraid to do it and they'd have to think about whether it would be worth the risk of getting caught and getting into a serious world of hurt... it was just that I wasn't one of those guys."

As I like to mention, there are times when I think about how stupidly easy it was for a guy to have sex with me and, yeah, sometimes, all a guy had to do was pull his dick out and show it to me and I'd want it in my mouth and in my ass... and remembering all of this still embarrasses me. I've never had any regrets about it - and in line with what I wrote yesterday about taking the good with the bad - but the facts of the matter were that if you were a guy and looking to do it with another guy, all you had to do was come find me because it was well known that I wouldn't say no or, if I did, it meant that I couldn't do it right then and there but come find me later, okay?

"You were quite the slut, weren't you?" my protégé asked.

"That's quite the understatement but, yeah, I was and I'd go as far as to say that I still am, to a degree," I typed back to him. "Even back then, my favorite thing in the world to do with a guy was to suck his dick until he came in my mouth and I got to do a lot of that and more so when some of my friends didn't always want to fuck or be fucked and that was just fine with me; I had acquired the taste for sperm and found it very much to my liking."

It would be fun to suck one of my friends who hadn't started shooting sperm because, if nothing else, I could feel his prick jerking and twitching my mouth and keep right on sucking him so I could get that wonderful feeling in my mouth again. It was a win/win for me because I was the first among us to actually shoot sperm and guys - and quite a few girls - would want to suck me and get me to shoot it in their mouth and if they didn't like the taste, well, I could always shoot it in their ass or pussy.

"So a cock sucking fiend, eh?" my protégé asked.

"Oh, hell, yeah," I responded. "Between my friends who could shoot and the, ah, dirty old men who didn't mind feeding me their dick - and paying me to be fed - there wasn't anything better than to suck on a dick until I'd get a mouthful of sperm and feeling it pumping away in my mouth."

"Nasty critter..." he typed, followed by an LOL emoticon. "Did you ever have to think about doing that?"

"No - I just did it because it didn't make sense to me not to do it," I said. "When I told you that I got hooked on it the very first time, I wasn't joking or kidding about that at all so, yeah, if a guy wanted me to suck his dick, there wasn't anything else to do other than to just do it."

One of the things I learned was that I had the... ability to think quickly and make decisions quickly and, ironically, thanks to my parents who would often tell me, "If you study long, you study wrong." That was in reference to doing homework and, as they explained to me, sometimes, the first answer that comes to your mind is usually the right answer but the longer you take to think about it, the more you second guess yourself and are more likely than not to provide the wrong answer.

When it came to doing something with a guy, it wasn't like I didn't think about it because I did... but I was able to think about "everything," both good and potentially bad about doing it - like getting caught doing it - and give the guy my answer right away instead of literally taking a couple of minutes to think about it. So a guy could ask, "You wanna do it?" and my answer of "Yeah!" would be given and inside of five seconds. I began to realize that I could answer quickly because the thrill of doing it with a guy just outweighed the risks of getting busted doing whatever... and to just do it was a no-brainer because doing it felt really, really good - and not doing it and when I wanted to, would make my balls hurt really bad.

Easy choice and one that didn't take a whole lot of thought.

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[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]​I was talking to my protégé about my sexual history with men one day and he was, I guess, both surprised and wowed at how much of it I've had. It gave me an opportunity to poke him in the ribs by saying, "Well, I have been doing this before you were born..." and to also remind him that throwing it down with men isn't something that I just started getting into.

He was throwing questions at me as fast as he could type them and faster than I could answer them, like was I getting so much dick because I had "a thing" for guys; he asked what methods I used to be able to get naked with another guy and what was my decision process when saying yea or nay to a proposition. All good questions and especially the last one - and I'll get to that in a moment. I explained to him that in those early days, having sex with a guy was stupidly easy since my male peers and I were beginning to feel those insane hormones flooding us and wanting to, as we'd say, do the nasty was a very high priority for all of us and while there were girls who were very game to have it done to them, there were more boys than girls who wanted to do it and, yeah, it really was as easy as asking a guy, "Hey... do you wanna do it?"

The decision process he asked about hadn't even been developed or refined so, for me, the answer was always, "Yeah!" because while doing it to a girl was damned good, it wasn't as exciting as getting naked with one of my male friends and getting to the business of sucking his dick, having mine sucked, and we both took turns fucking each other and, as always, it was even more exciting since we all knew that we weren't supposed to be doing it and not even with girls. I said to him that I honestly can't remember too many times, in the early days, where I said no to an offer of sex with a guy and if I did, it was probably because I didn't know him all that well or the instincts I was developing would be telling me to say no even if the hormones in control of me were telling me to go for it anyway.

I can't say that I remember too many times when I actually had to stop and think about whether I wanted to do it with a guy and I mean in terms of where and when and if it was a guy I knew, well, the only thinking that had to be done was where and when and to that end, when was right now and where was equally a non-issue since we all knew every place in our neighborhood where we could go and have sex without worrying about getting caught doing it, that and there was always the chance that we'd pick a place, get there, and find some of our other friends already there and well into doing it so joining them and turning it into a group sex situation just made sense to one and all.[/FONT][/SIZE]