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my desire
my destiny
u
ur breath
ur arms
my body
naked
natural
for u
desperate
desiring
longing
thirsting
craving
for ur intimate touch
ur hands on me
our stare
i want u
take me completely
i give myself to u
ur lips
my lips
touch
tongue
getting lost in u
lying down
on top of me
i welcome u
ur penis
it's feel
it's pulse
it's thrust
now a part of me
connection
acceptance
resolution
pleasure
freedom

What`s left?
Once you strip away the smiles
Strip away clothes
Strip away the make up
The jewelry
All the material things

What`s left?
When you strip away the computer
Strip away the online persona
Strip away the user name
Strip away everything online

What`s left?
When it is you yourself
Your true self
And no one else

What`s left?
When you face yourself
Face up to everything you`ve done
All the pain, hurt, strife, happiness, joy caused

What`s left?
When in the end
We all have to pay for our parts
What`s left?

When there is no one left
But yourself and you`re
All alone*

what`s left then?

Mom, John brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great crack.
Mom, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A`s,
I even got the gold!
But Mom, when I went school that day,
I never said good-bye,
I`m sorry Mom, I had to go,
But Mom, please don`t cry.
When John shot the gun,
He hit me and another,
And all because John,
Got the gun from his older brother.
Mom, please tell Dad:
That I love him very much,
And please tell Chris, my boyfriend:
That it wasn`t just a crush.
And tell my little sister:
That she is the only one now,
And tell my grandmother:
I`ll be waiting for her now,
And tell my wonderful friends:
That they always were the best.
Mom, I`m not the first,
I`m no better than the rest.
Mom, tell my teachers:
I won`t show up for class,
And never to forget this,
And please don`t let this pass.
Mom, why`d it have to be me?
No one deserves this,
Mom, warn the others,
And Mom, tell the doctors:
I know they really did try,
I think I even saw a doctor,
Trying not to cry.
Mom, I`m slowly dying,
With a bullet in my chest,
But Mom, please remember,
I`m in heaven with the rest.
Mom, I ran as fast as I could,
When I heard that crack,
Mom, listen to me if you would,
I`m not coming back.
I wanted to go to college,
I wanted to try things that were new,
I wanted to get married,
I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress,
Mom, I wanted to live.
But Mom I must go now,
The time is getting late,
Mom, tell my boyfriend:
I`m sorry but I had to cancel the date.
I love you Mom, I always have,
I know you know it`s true,
And Mom all I wanted to say is,
"Mom, I love you."

The night falls as if slain by the sun,
cold and alone we are.
The god for which you sacrifice
yourself
Flares once, then dies,
Devoured by the abyss.
All hope must sicken and die.

Your heart beats no more/
How could you leave me?
Our dark thoughts surround us, crying,*
Save us from ourselves.

I slit my wrists to watch them bleed
as i think of how much you mean to me
but now you`re gone and i dread
all these memories in my head.

I`m glad you can`t hear the voices in
my head because they tell me to go ahead
go ahead and slit my wrists
as i think of our first kiss.

Everyone knows but they can`t tell*
just how much this feels like hell.
They knwo i love, i know you don`t*
and i`ll still love you when she won`t.

All this pain was caused by you.
The love we had you said was true...
Then one day you took it away
was there anything i could say?