I have be experimenting with men for the last year. Ive been curious since I hit 40 and decided to live a little and see who I am. I found out that yes I'm bi, I love cock as much as pussy, I also like to bottom. I like to lay on my back, legs in the air. I love to look at him while he pounds me good. Ive been bringing in the bottom aspect when I sleep with woman and its been making that part of sex better too. Woman seem to love to peg men. I still prefer a cock. Now I'm getting ready to take it to the next step. Ive bought a dress and sandals, a wig. Ive got make up and I got a petty and my toes painted. I want to cross dress now and see were it goes. I want to be topped by a man first. Then Ill try a woman topping me while I'm all pretty. This has been a fun journey. Ive been wanting to share it with someone. I hope you enjoy.
I haven't told anybody in my real life about being with men and don't intend to. However, the experiences kept circling in my head that I wanted to write my experiences being a smooth bottom in a forum. My interest in sucking cock (and soon being a bottom came from watching nothing but deepthroat and blowbang porn. A compilation video that i would watch repeatedly really got me into it. At first it was an erotic fantasy, but the more I watched the same compilation video the more I really wanted to try it. I didn't feel 'awkward' or 'weird' for wanting to experience giving at least one blowjob, and I felt completely normal after my first time. It was more of getting a fantasy 'over with.' At that point, I also wondered what women felt like during and after they had sex. I also have no bodyhair (and especially no facial hair) when I 'cruise' around for cock, and I have a slight 'fem' persona while cruising, so I appeal to a certain kind of top. Especially those that like a round ass and nice legs. My preference for tops are stocky/chubby men in their 40's and older. Those that have a slight goatee, and are either bald or close to being bald make the best tops for that criteria. I found this out after my first time with a top trucker, and really liked the experience. I knew how to suck his cock and got him from flaccid to hard pretty quickly. From then, I roamed the local adult bookstores/theaters until I visited one that was next to a truckstop. Because of its location, I had great experiences, and never had trouble getting a man I wanted to bottom for to pull their cocks out for me while on my knees in front of him. Sucking their cocks really turned me on, especially when they would moan, rub my shoulders, or hold the back of my neck as I blew them. It surprised me how good I was at it for having very little experience. I had no problem putting their flaccid cocks in my mouth and making them hard. When I tasted pre-cum seeping out of their cocks, I would stop and whisper, "Do you wanna fuck me?" with a seductive look. I would always get a 'yes,' so I would put a condom on them, stand up, pull my lower body clothes down and bend over for them. I always got my ass eaten and loved having it done. I always gotten fucked really good too, and loved when my hips would get gripped tight and pulled deeper towards their cock. My last experience in that theater was memorable since it was the first time I had passionate sex with a top. He would tell me how sexy I am and how great my body was while I sucked his cock. He would then lift my chin up and kiss my neck multiple times. He was really into me, and I got really turned on that I just took my tights down and wanted him to fuck me. Afterwards, I felt feminine and sexy. I haven't done anything since then because I felt that was the perfect experience to stop for a while. However, I do have fantasies of being on my knees for a blowbang in the theater, and 3-4 truckers taking turns fucking me in the back of a semi-truck. I might act on those someday.
I can hardly sleep at night, wondering when I will find a clean mwm to take my tight ass balls deep. I've begged my wife to slide her vibe inside my butt & she won't. So I need a man to tie me up and fuck me.
I like girls but somethimes i like to play around with guys. I always top a guy and thats all i would do.For the last few days i been wanting to take a dick up my ass. I just want to know how does it feel? Will it hurt? If i do try what is a good size to start with? Any thoughts on this?