Hi i am a closeted Crossdressing sissy man/gurl. I am married and going crazy. I love my Wife, but I love Crossdressing and I love COCK and never (or all Most never) have sex with the wife. When i do I need the little blue pill to get hard. When I dress sissy and slutty I am hard as a rock, when I see COCK I am hard as a rock. I am so tired of having to hide, yet I know if I reveal the GURL I want to that will be the end of my marriage. I am happy when being Seanette! I fully shave my body except below the knees.. so as to not be noticed, but I want to shave my lower legs too. I lotion my body and shave daily I have only sucked a few cocks and I LOVE IT, I want anal bareback but but so far just my silicone suction cup 11" dildo and I can cum when I fuck myself with it. I want real cock..soo bad. I have tons of clothes and dresses, panties nylons I love thigh highs Heel all 5" strappy 7 pairs.. sissy maid and school girl outfits. Anyone else in my situation. I am only happy when I am dressed or worshipping COCK.[ATTACH=CONFIG]59261[/ATTACH]
So if you read my first blog here you will see that I told my wife how my bisexual curiosity was gaining some traction and I would like to explore it more, she agreed and I proceeded to look into some avenues of finding someone to explore their feeling with. Fast forward a few weeks and we are having some sort of conversation and something got said and at that point, I knew I had really hurt my wife, which is something I really did not intend or want to do. I decided that the best thing to do would be to stop my search for a partner and try and stop thinking of this situation. But here we are almost a year later and I am back into the same feelings I had before. Although this time we had a more frank discussion. I basically said I have these feelings and I can't do anything about it. Out of the love and respect I have for her I will not pursue an IRL meeting or boyfriend but I will continue to be online chatting and talking with other people that have the same interests as me. So for the foreseeable future, there is no chance that I will act on any of my bi feelings but I can at least come here and talk with other people that feel the same way as I do. Cynthia