My sexuality is important to me. It is not, at least since I was a teenager the most important thing in my life. The people and the world around us have always been more important to me than how I feel about men or women and having a shag.
I sounded off at a member in another thread tonight because he really irritated. His inane posts have always irritated because they mean nothing and are the posts of a silly juvenile little boy. Yet they have shown to me one thing. This site is no longer for me. It is not only he, but so many others who post absolute drivel. I have outgrown this place. I have had doubts about its usefulness to me at least for some considerable time, and questioned whether or not I should continue to be a member. It is only my affection for some which has kept me here. Yet even most of them have buggered off.. I cant imagine why...
I am and have always been a political animal. I feel about things. The last few months have tested me like I have never been tested because it is very real and lives are at stake. In the Arab world there has been huge upheaval. One part of the arab world, Bahrain, where I have 17 friends from my university days and those friends in real trouble.. their lives at risk. They live every day how I believe we should live. Demonstrating peacefully against odds which scare the shite out of them. Odds with tanks and guns. They have only faith and belief in their cause. They are simply the bravest most wonderfully honourable people I have ever known and make me feel like a charlatan. Several have been beaten up badly, one had no alternative but to go into hiding, their families threatened and assaulted too, even young children have been beaten. Several women relations of my friends have been sexually assaulted by the security forces, most of whom are not even Bahrainians, but come from Iraq, Syria, Pakistan, Jordan and other very strange places. One was held by the secret police for over a month and kicked shit out of. Doctors and surgeons who have treated the dead dying and injured have been arrested and disappeared into Bahrains dungeons. I have spent hours every day on the net, the phone, and making representations to MPs, MSPs writing to Cameron, Haig etal and who ever else has any influence whatever else goes on in Bahrain. I am stressed and I dont care who knows it.
Who is to blame? Iran? Fuck off. Bahrainian Shia dont want Iran involved in their country any more than they want the Americans, Saudi (especially the Saudi) or British. The Bahrainian Sunni rule and want to keep it that way even although they are less than a third of the population. The rich third. They have the wealth and privilege and screw the rest. They have the Royal family and a government dominated by Sunnis and dedicated to the preservation of Sunni domination..Saudi Arabia insists on this, and the west couldnt give a shite.
So my friends, who I have known for a dozen years and more are threatened, jailed, beaten the fuck out of and in time may die. Their friends have been killed, murdered by the state apparatus, and their allies from abroad, and no one, but no one is immune from the bullet of a tyrant and his bastard servants. Bahrain is not Libya, and is not nearly so nasty a situation as Libya.. yet it is a parallel..and it is nasty... and the west does fuck all and cares fuck all. Bahrain is a friend to the west so fuck the majority population. they dont matter. they are Shia and so in the pocket of Iran.. they are only arabs.. moslems.. who gives a shite?? What fucking bollox.
People should not live in terror. Most of the people in the west have cheered on the revolts of Tunisia, Egypt and Libya, the Yemen and Syria.. but few Bahrain.. Bahrain is our team after all.. and who cares a bugger that a minority weathy corrupt stands on and treats the rest like shite. I do. It is my friends who are suffering, my friends who are in hiding and my friends whose lives are in danger..
So fuck .com. and thank u Maxie for being the catalyst which has made me realise what a stupid, shite site this is nowadays. Carry on wanking. I'll carry on living in the real world and trying to make it better... even for u sad wazzocks who are only interested in where ur next fuck is coming from...
There are some I apologise to for this outburst.. they know who they are cos they have offered me nothing but support, love and friendship over the last 6 years and to whom I am deeply, deeply grateful... now? Many have left as I have said, but to all I love you more than u can know.
To those I do care for so much and who care for me forgive me my heart.. thank you from the bottom of that sad wrenched heart for every word of kindness u have ever given me and there have been so, so many. Thank you for the fun and laughter, the flirting and the joy you have given me so freely from within your own heart. Thank you for your compassion and understanding. I have said enough... I am done. I love you, shall always love you, will remember you and until the day I die shall remain always in your debt.